Sunday, April 28, 2013

Being Natural is not about a trend! It's not just about hair! Its about embacing yourself for who you were made to be!


 May 14, 2012 is the day that changed my whole perception of who I am. It's the day that I liberated myself from the sinasim of my beauty being attached to hair or what society honors as beautiful. On that day I big chopped! My hair was only an inch long. I was scared out of my mind! The first couple of days after cutting my hair were very mind boggling. I wondered what people would think of me? How I would now get a mate? Would I be viewed as being attractive? Could I handle the stares?



Well, truth is, the first month I couldn't! I was too afraid! I wasn't confident with out my hair. I felt like I looked like a boy! I was frightened by the idea of others looking at me differently. So I got braids... I know, I know... I just couldn't handle the pressure...


All my life I viewed myself through the lense of others. I felt that I would be beautiful if I lossed weight..If I was lighter... If my hair was longer, or straighter even....  I felt that I had to be a certain way. I had to look a certain way. But, today as a result of taking this journey, I am learning that beauty is more than an outward appearance. It goes beyond how people see me, but it is an outward expression of what I think of myself internally. When I cut my hair, I felt as though I was cutting off past dissapointments.. Past insecurities.. And as if I was screaming loudly for all the world to hear, I am fearfully and wonderfully made! I am beautiful! I am special! I am unique!!  With make up or without it! With hair or non at all! I am happy to be me! I love the skin I'm in!
 And I am excited about this journey! My one year natural anniversary is vastly approaching and I cannot wait to do a length check! 
Please look out for my 1 year progress!! Can't Wait!!



Monday, April 22, 2013

I believe Indie Arie said it best when she said "I am not my hair; I am not this skin, but the soul that lives within." Wheew! I wish I had coined that!! That statement is so true to what I have come to believe!  It truly speaks volumes!! In whatever state I'm in I've learned to be content! Whether I have no hair or hair down my back, God made me beautiful! 
I have not always thought this way.. It has been a process!
 But, once you know who you are,there is no turning back to your old mentality, and no one can tell you otherwise!

Early in my life I often felt like I wasn't good enough. I felt as though I was ugly and everything about me just seemed to be all wrong. I would literally walk pass the every mirror I came in contact with because I just knew that what looked back at me was not beautiful in my eyes! Others would tell me I looked nice or that I was pretty (usually older people) and I just did not believe them. In my mind I felt they just felt they had to say that.. When I looked at myself I saw someone that was dark-skinned, thick, and imperfect in every way! But, as I grew older I began to see myself as God sees me; Fearfully and Wonderfully made!
God completely changed my whole perspective on how I view myself and others! No longer do I view beauty as something that is one-sided, but that has layers! Everyone, in some shape or form, is beautiful in their own way because God created them to be. After God created everything that was made he said it was good, so who am I to think or say otherwise. So to you out there who may feel like you are too dark.. If you were any lighter you would not have been God's special creation. To you who may feel like you are too short, God didn't want you to be as tall as others.. He likes when you have to look up! To those who may feel like you are not smart enough, God loves that you need his wisdom! And lastly for those who feel that you are nothing, understand that that is only possible without him! So Love the skin your'e in! Your imperfcetions are Perfect because God did them on Purpose!!
P.S. Look out for the next Post!